A new year - 2019 ....

It is day one of a new year.  Honestly it feels just like any other day.  Sitting here waiting for the ham to cook.  Probably wont venture out of my pj's today except get into another pair later after my shower.  lol 

It is pretty nice day out there today other then being cold that is.  The whole calm before the storm, I guess.  Suppose to be getting a major snow storm tonight into tomorrow morning.  Then it will be nice for a few hours in the afternoon but the winds are to get gusty then more snow.  Can you say blizzard conditions. sigh  I hate winter.  Thankfully Thursday and Friday is suppose to be nice, might get out then for a few errands.  Feels like I haven't been out in ages.  But it is winter, the cold and the snow are most defiantly not a friend of mine.

Haven't decided if I am going to make any resolutions this year or not.  I never seem to follow through with them for very long.  But will see.  I do have a book challenge on the go, 52 books this year.  I completed my challenge last year but alot of those where comics, but does that really count as a book.  Will post more on that on my book blog, at some point.

Guess that is it for now.  Wonder what this new year will bring? 

Here's hoping for something new in the New Year......

I have high hope's for the new year.   I just hope I can accomplish something, anything to make my life more interesting, better then it has been.  Just seems like the days go by and nothing stands out.  I feel like I am living a life full of regrets or should have's.  Time to kick my butt in gear and live for myself not everyone else.  Wish me luck....

1 week down......

The first week of the new year is almost in the books and I can honestly say I don't see much difference from last year.   I have the Christmas tree and all the decorations down.  The house looks bare now.   But no major life changing or ah ha moments.  Guess that corner is a bit wider then I thought. 

The weather sucks then again it is winter.  Makes it hard to get motivated or go outside.  The kids will be back to school tomorrow so back to the normal routine and I am looking forward to it.

No resolutions made as of yet just trying to make small changes to make myself happier and do more things for myself.  Really need to learn to say no.  Just wish I would see more progress with getting back to being more myself that somehow got lost along the way.  I am sure some days will be better then others but as long as I keep moving forward and don't give up I might just get some where. lol

Really need to sit down and write a list of what I want from this New Year and maybe then check things off as I go each day.  Seems like my day is gone and I look back and I have nothing to show for it and I hate that.  Oh well all I can is take each day as they come and try to make them better then he day before.    Wish me luck.

Resolutions .....

New year, new me.  Yeah right.  Every year I make resolutions, and every year I fail.  I managed to keep them for a short time but life really has a way of sucking up your day with things leaving no time for new stuff.  I know what your thinking excuses, excuses and your probably right.  Anything important and worth doing you should take the time and just do it.  No argument here but in the end I don't manage to get there for what ever reason.  So what am I do to then.  Beats the hell out of me.  I think I will start with small things here and there and see what happens.  Something has to give.  I just hope it isn't my sanity, lol.  Wish me luck.

Happy New Year 2018 ........

So you think this post is about you, NO NO NO .....

So many people get bent out of shape or up in arms when they read something that someone they know posted.  Like it is directed towards them or about them in some way, even if it is in the smallest degree.

What I say about that, is do you have a guilty conscience, or something to hide, that you take offence to something I was thinking or thought was worthy to post or reblog. Well the joke is on you, it wasn't about you in any way.

I think that is why I don't do much in the line of personal posts or comment on things other people may post.  Just don't want the headache of dealing with another person not liking my opinion or comment on what ever.  But that stops now.  I want to get back into writing post, rants or what ever prompts me to write.

Oh and don't take what I am posting to be something I am personally going through either.  Most of what I post I have a feeling will be rants or opinions or something that I felt strongly enough to take the time to type up a post.

So with that said from here on in what ever I post, the topic, the subject or what ever it may be, isn't directed towards any family member, friend or even acquaintance.  Let me say again MY POST ISN"T ABOUT YOU.

Now if by chance I choose a topic that you may of gone through or are going through take it as a coincidence.  There is enough of examples of anything and everything online, on tv, on the radio and the what not that I don't need to get ideas of things to post about from those I know.  

One last thing if you don't like what I post or reblog then by all means just unfollow, unfriend or what ever the option is to delete me from that social network.  Speaking of sites,  you many see doubles of somethings depending on or where I post.  Now that is on you if you are staking me, joking, on more them one website.  lol

Why.......

do I need to justify or explain what I am doing to you or to anyone.  What does it matter what I am doing or not doing as long as it doesn't effect you in anyway.  I feel like more and more I have to explain what I am doing to others and it is pissing me off.  You would swear that these things that I once did and are trying to do again is thing that are out of character for my personality.

I feel like saying what I am really thinking, which is that I am trying to get back what I have lost of myself along the way by being a wife and mother all these years.  I have lost what makes me happy, what makes me me.  I somehow along the way stopped doing things like reading, writing and all the other things that I have forgotten.  Things that have been shoved aside and replaced with cooking and cleaning, taking care of the kids etc.

Don't get me wrong wouldn't changed a thing, well maybe I would of liked to of made sure that I made time for myself each day even if it was only something small.   But like most mothers we sacrifice our own happiness or replace it with other things and other people, like our kids.  Then when they become old enough to do things for themselves or entertain themselves we don't know what to do with our new found time.

Why should I feel like I have to justify trying to find something that makes just me happy?