Do More Yourself.

Came across this video and it made me stop and think. Do things for yourself don't get someone else to do them for you.  

March is here again ....

and where no better then we where last year.  We are in week 3 of lockdown with at least another week to go.  Things are better on the covid front but we still are seeing cases but we are in the single digits of new cases and I think we are just a little over 100 active cases.  With 2 new deaths bringing our total to 6.  I haven't really been keeping close tabs. It is stressing me out to be honest.  

I have been doing the bare minimum most days for to many days now.  I just can't seem to get out of the funk I am in. I have moments but, nothing that is lasting.  I have to force myself to do other things just to get it done.  This is so not like me.  I know part of it is the lockdown and part of it is winter.  I just can't get out like I want to walk.  Plus going places now is just to much worry about getting sick or bringing it home to those who really can't afford to get it. 

The things that usually brings me out of my funk isn't helping.  I love to read but last month I read only two books and that was early in the month.  I did manage to read a book last night it was a little over 100 pages so I guess that is something.  I love to listen to music but don't get to do that much where I usually get the time to do that is on walks.  One silver lining has been tiktok.  I have probably been spending too much time on there but it seems to be the only thing to distract me lately.  I really need to keep out of me head it isn't really a good place lately.  I know this will pass but I just wish it would sooner then later. 

So that is basically how I have been. 

 

Long time no post....

 Sorry things have been crazy busy on my end.  On top of that haven't really been feeling 100 percent for awhile now.  

I went in for day surgery, Wednesday past, female stuff.  Here's hoping it was worth it.  On the mend, but some days are better then others.  Only time will tell if it fixed the issues I was having. I got in under the wire, because by Friday everything was shut down. 

We are in lockdown number 2 here.  One of our high schools got the covid variant from the UK, so we are trying to get things under control.  Thankfully it wasn't my daughters school.  So for at least the next two week, the kids will be doing online learning.  I figure once we get closer to the 26th of the month they might extend it another week or more. 

We are only allowed to go out when we have to.  Most places are closed except for grocery stores, drugstores and the such.  If you can work from home they want you too.  Fast food places and restaurants can do deliver or curb side pick up. 

So far we have 296 active cases and all but a handful of those are from the one cluster out break. sigh

Winter is here still.  I thought we were getting an early spring Mister groundhog. So I guess the last few storms we are having is going to make up for that.  I think we have another one coming the middle of this week. 

On a fun note I have found a great new distraction and it is called TikTok. lol  God help me. I don't post I prefer to watch. lol  I mean watch creators well thought out videos and comment accordingly lmao

Why do people feel the need to criticize everything you do? ...

Is it an age thing?  You reach the age of 60 plus and you decided I think I will nit pick and criticize anything and everything a person does from here on in.  

Stuff that they seen you do many times for years.  The way you clean the house, the way you dress, your hair.  They way you cook, and the list goes on.  Then when you lash out at them and tell them to knock the hell off and leave you alone, or do it yourself then.  Well I might have cleaned that up a bit for this post.  lol bleeping out a few curse words.  Of course then they get pissed off at you for standing up for yourself and they stomp off like a child.  Like really. 

Most times I can just let it roll off my back.  They are just looking for an argument.  To know that they are getting under your skin.  But sometimes enough is enough. 

Thanks for listening. 

Snow storm not snowmagaddon 2.0. ....

 thank god.  Well it was only a matter of time.  This being Newfoundland and all.  We got our first snow storm of the season and I think it is here to stay.  The kids come home early yesterday and today they had a delayed opening.  So naturally my high schooler didn't go at all either day. lol 

The dog wouldn't take no for an answer when he asked to go out in the middle of the storm.  FYI he is a shih tzu that is trained to a litter box.  So no real need for him to go out.  But of course he wanted to.  He jumped out the back door when up past his belly in snow.  Then had the nerve to look at me saying help. lol So I had to lean out and not loose my balance and take him out of the snowbank lol .

I have a love hate relationship with snow.  I love the beauty of it when it is down or falling.  Love to take pictures.  But I don't like going out in it.  Only because once I get cold or wet I am not fit to talk too.  Plus the whole slipping and falling down. 

I love Christmas ....

 it is one of my favorite holidays with Halloween being a close second.  I love to decorate for both.  But dam is it alot of work.  It takes me 3 or 4 days to decorate for Christmas and then another 2 to take it all down.  Yes I have that many decorations. lol My friend would say Christmas throw up in your house.  I can't help it I love Christmas.  lol  

But Christmas hasn't really been the same since the kids are older.  No fun Christmas morning when they know everything they are getting.  They are at the age that they are too hard to shop for.  So Christmas morning isn't' at the crack of dawn it is more closer to noon.  Not that I mind the sleeping in after being up late getting the gifts wrapped and under the tree Christmas Eve.  But it just isn't the same. 

Looking around the house now that everything is down, well all but the tree.  The house looks bare.  But I know in a few days I will be use to it and Christmas will be forgotten till next time. 

Walking is so therapeutic and relaxing ....

 At least it is for me.  Nothing better then getting out of the house for a walk. 

I put my music on, to drown out my thoughts, not always a good thing living in my head.   To just, try to be in the moment.   It is one of a few things I get to do just for me, alone.  Yeah it would be great to have someone to talk to sometimes, but what can you do.  

Thankfully where I live I can go for a walk around the block which takes about 45 minutes. 

There is just no pleasing some people...

No matter how much you do.  Like really was it necessary for you to give me attitude.  Then you wonder why I have one. Or as you say I am crooked all the time. I wonder why I even try or open my mouth anymore. Then I wonder why I don't know how to talk to people anymore. 

Thank god for my online stuff.  Only thing that keeps me sane most days. Even then some days that doesn't even help.  Maybe that is why I have been watching way to many Hallmark movies.  sigh 

Sorry just needed to vent.  

New Year, New me .....

 lol .. yeah nope.  Hate to break it to you, what you see is what you get.  Not sure if that is a good thing or not.  But you have been warned.  Life is too short to be any one else but you.  I think last year was proof of that.

Anyway after last years mess.  I think I will go with the flow a bit more on my goals/resolutions for the year.  I see alot of people saying, they are going to take each day as it comes.  That they what to take more time for themselves.   Sounds good to me.  I know I stretch myself too thin most days and don't leave anything for me.  That is why I like being online, doing things that interest me.  These things are just for me, no one else. 

So with that in mind I want to find a few minutes each day to pop on here and post something.  Anything even if it is just to vent about things that are going on with me.  

I really need to get out of my comfort zone that I have been living in for way too long. I feel like I have gotten into a rut.  Of course I decided to do this when you really can't do much socializing well at least in person anyway.  So that is why I want to put more of me out there.  I tend to keep things to myself which most of the time isn't a good thing.  But then I think why would anyone be interested in what I have to say and so I don't. 

I have other interests out side of being online so I am going to try and do more of that as well, reading ( I have a blog for reviews that I am terrible of keeping up to date), photography ( I have a blog for that as well).  I like to walk, but not in the winter.  I hate the cold well it is more like once I get cold I am not fit to be around. lol I like doing puzzles, regular and 3d.  I have a few activity books that I like to do as well. 

Anyway, the jury is still out for me if this year is going to be better then the last.  We will see I guess.