March is here again ....

and where no better then we where last year.  We are in week 3 of lockdown with at least another week to go.  Things are better on the covid front but we still are seeing cases but we are in the single digits of new cases and I think we are just a little over 100 active cases.  With 2 new deaths bringing our total to 6.  I haven't really been keeping close tabs. It is stressing me out to be honest.  

I have been doing the bare minimum most days for to many days now.  I just can't seem to get out of the funk I am in. I have moments but, nothing that is lasting.  I have to force myself to do other things just to get it done.  This is so not like me.  I know part of it is the lockdown and part of it is winter.  I just can't get out like I want to walk.  Plus going places now is just to much worry about getting sick or bringing it home to those who really can't afford to get it. 

The things that usually brings me out of my funk isn't helping.  I love to read but last month I read only two books and that was early in the month.  I did manage to read a book last night it was a little over 100 pages so I guess that is something.  I love to listen to music but don't get to do that much where I usually get the time to do that is on walks.  One silver lining has been tiktok.  I have probably been spending too much time on there but it seems to be the only thing to distract me lately.  I really need to keep out of me head it isn't really a good place lately.  I know this will pass but I just wish it would sooner then later. 

So that is basically how I have been. 

 

Long time no post....

 Sorry things have been crazy busy on my end.  On top of that haven't really been feeling 100 percent for awhile now.  

I went in for day surgery, Wednesday past, female stuff.  Here's hoping it was worth it.  On the mend, but some days are better then others.  Only time will tell if it fixed the issues I was having. I got in under the wire, because by Friday everything was shut down. 

We are in lockdown number 2 here.  One of our high schools got the covid variant from the UK, so we are trying to get things under control.  Thankfully it wasn't my daughters school.  So for at least the next two week, the kids will be doing online learning.  I figure once we get closer to the 26th of the month they might extend it another week or more. 

We are only allowed to go out when we have to.  Most places are closed except for grocery stores, drugstores and the such.  If you can work from home they want you too.  Fast food places and restaurants can do deliver or curb side pick up. 

So far we have 296 active cases and all but a handful of those are from the one cluster out break. sigh

Winter is here still.  I thought we were getting an early spring Mister groundhog. So I guess the last few storms we are having is going to make up for that.  I think we have another one coming the middle of this week. 

On a fun note I have found a great new distraction and it is called TikTok. lol  God help me. I don't post I prefer to watch. lol  I mean watch creators well thought out videos and comment accordingly lmao

Walking is so therapeutic and relaxing ....

 At least it is for me.  Nothing better then getting out of the house for a walk. 

I put my music on, to drown out my thoughts, not always a good thing living in my head.   To just, try to be in the moment.   It is one of a few things I get to do just for me, alone.  Yeah it would be great to have someone to talk to sometimes, but what can you do.  

Thankfully where I live I can go for a walk around the block which takes about 45 minutes. 

New Year, New me .....

 lol .. yeah nope.  Hate to break it to you, what you see is what you get.  Not sure if that is a good thing or not.  But you have been warned.  Life is too short to be any one else but you.  I think last year was proof of that.

Anyway after last years mess.  I think I will go with the flow a bit more on my goals/resolutions for the year.  I see alot of people saying, they are going to take each day as it comes.  That they what to take more time for themselves.   Sounds good to me.  I know I stretch myself too thin most days and don't leave anything for me.  That is why I like being online, doing things that interest me.  These things are just for me, no one else. 

So with that in mind I want to find a few minutes each day to pop on here and post something.  Anything even if it is just to vent about things that are going on with me.  

I really need to get out of my comfort zone that I have been living in for way too long. I feel like I have gotten into a rut.  Of course I decided to do this when you really can't do much socializing well at least in person anyway.  So that is why I want to put more of me out there.  I tend to keep things to myself which most of the time isn't a good thing.  But then I think why would anyone be interested in what I have to say and so I don't. 

I have other interests out side of being online so I am going to try and do more of that as well, reading ( I have a blog for reviews that I am terrible of keeping up to date), photography ( I have a blog for that as well).  I like to walk, but not in the winter.  I hate the cold well it is more like once I get cold I am not fit to be around. lol I like doing puzzles, regular and 3d.  I have a few activity books that I like to do as well. 

Anyway, the jury is still out for me if this year is going to be better then the last.  We will see I guess.