Sunday, January 7, 2018

1 week down......

The first week of the new year is almost in the books and I can honestly say I don't see much difference from last year.   I have the Christmas tree and all the decorations down.  The house looks bare now.   But no major life changing or ah ha moments.  Guess that corner is a bit wider then I thought. 

The weather sucks then again it is winter.  Makes it hard to get motivated or go outside.  The kids will be back to school tomorrow so back to the normal routine and I am looking forward to it.

No resolutions made as of yet just trying to make small changes to make myself happier and do more things for myself.  Really need to learn to say no.  Just wish I would see more progress with getting back to being more myself that somehow got lost along the way.  I am sure some days will be better then others but as long as I keep moving forward and don't give up I might just get some where. lol

Really need to sit down and write a list of what I want from this New Year and maybe then check things off as I go each day.  Seems like my day is gone and I look back and I have nothing to show for it and I hate that.  Oh well all I can is take each day as they come and try to make them better then he day before.    Wish me luck.

Wednesday, January 3, 2018

Resolutions .....





New year, new me.  Yeah right.  Every year I make resolutions, and every year I fail.  I managed to keep them for a short time but life really has a way of sucking up your day with things leaving no time for new stuff.  I know what your thinking excuses, excuses and your probably right.  Anything important and worth doing you should take the time and just do it.  No argument here but in the end I don't manage to get there for what ever reason.  So what am I do to then.  Beats the hell out of me.  I think I will start with small things here and there and see what happens.  Something has to give.  I just hope it isn't my sanity, lol.  Wish me luck.

Sunday, January 1, 2017

So you think this post is about you, NO NO NO .....

So many people get bent out of shape or up in arms when they read something that someone they know posted.  Like it is directed towards them or about them in some way, even if it is in the smallest degree.

What I say about that, is do you have a guilty conscience, or something to hide, that you take offence to something I was thinking or thought was worthy to post or reblog. Well the joke is on you, it wasn't about you in any way.

I think that is why I don't do much in the line of personal posts or comment on things other people may post.  Just don't want the headache of dealing with another person not liking my opinion or comment on what ever.  But that stops now.  I want to get back into writing post, rants or what ever prompts me to write.

Oh and don't take what I am posting to be something I am personally going through either.  Most of what I post I have a feeling will be rants or opinions or something that I felt strongly enough to take the time to type up a post.

So with that said from here on in what ever I post, the topic, the subject or what ever it may be, isn't directed towards any family member, friend or even acquaintance.  Let me say again MY POST ISN"T ABOUT YOU.

Now if by chance I choose a topic that you may of gone through or are going through take it as a coincidence.  There is enough of examples of anything and everything online, on tv, on the radio and the what not that I don't need to get ideas of things to post about from those I know.  

One last thing if you don't like what I post or reblog then by all means just unfollow, unfriend or what ever the option is to delete me from that social network.  Speaking of sites,  you many see doubles of somethings depending on or where I post.  Now that is on you if you are staking me, joking, on more them one website.  lol

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

Why.......

do I need to justify or explain what I am doing to you or to anyone.  What does it matter what I am doing or not doing as long as it doesn't effect you in anyway.  I feel like more and more I have to explain what I am doing to others and it is pissing me off.  You would swear that these things that I once did and are trying to do again is thing that are out of character for my personality.

I feel like saying what I am really thinking, which is that I am trying to get back what I have lost of myself along the way by being a wife and mother all these years.  I have lost what makes me happy, what makes me me.  I somehow along the way stopped doing things like reading, writing and all the other things that I have forgotten.  Things that have been shoved aside and replaced with cooking and cleaning, taking care of the kids etc.

Don't get me wrong wouldn't changed a thing, well maybe I would of liked to of made sure that I made time for myself each day even if it was only something small.   But like most mothers we sacrifice our own happiness or replace it with other things and other people, like our kids.  Then when they become old enough to do things for themselves or entertain themselves we don't know what to do with our new found time.

Why should I feel like I have to justify trying to find something that makes just me happy?

Monday, October 12, 2015

I am not left handed..........

I am right handed and you don't realize just how much you do with one hand over the other.  I hurt my should awhile back, doctor said that I was to take it easy and not to use that arm.  Well easier said then done, hence the problem.

I was in the shower, trying to wash my hair.  Lots of fun, NOT.  In the end it felt like I wash only half my hair.  Not even sure I got all the soap out.  Talk about awkward.

Sitting here typing, no problem can use both hands/ arms, but if I was to go for my mouse with my right hand, I look like the Thing from the Munster, using my fingers to walk my hand over to the mouse.

In bed it is like waking up with your arm asleep not being about to move it with out using the other hand to do so.  It would be funny if it didn't hurt so much.

It has been months of this and I thought I was getting better, hadn't had a issue in a couple weeks.  Boy was I wrong.  All it took was to clean out two cupboards, wash the two shelves and paint it and boom back to all the paint and lack of motion with it. grrrrr

Doing things with my left hand takes way longer and more concentration and patience that I do not have.  Guess I am just too independent for my own good.  Would rather do it myself then to ask someone to do it for me.

Not sure how I am going to managed the rest of my fall cleaning and decluttering at this rate.  Oh and Christmas around the corner after that, don't even what to think about how I am going to get that done.

Thursday, October 1, 2015

Ideas come at all the wrong times....

Don't you just hate that.  Let me explain.

Ideas come to me when I am suppose to be sleeping, in the shower, when I am out and about running errands, and just anytime I don't have a moment to write it down or have paper on me to.  Now that isn't the totally truth my cell phone has a voice recorder app, I could just leave a recording like I do for my gym workouts, (time, distance, calories).   But I am never alone and I sure as hell not going to try and explain what I am doing to someone just so they can look at me like I am crazy.  They just don't get it.

 It is frustrating to me to not be able to get these awesome thoughts out and down on paper or online, like I am doing now.  I am currently distracting myself from some work that is being down that is driving me crazy.  Getting off topic here, I do that alot too. lol  That and like now or should I say before, I got interrupted and had to walk away from my post.  Now I am not sure where this train of thought was taking me.

Bottom line I love to write about things, some random thoughts provoked from a line in a song or from seeing or thinking of something random.  Yes after all these years of being a mother and still one I do have a brain left.  See another great post idea that I won't get too, barely finding time to finish this one. sigh